Friday, January 13, 2006

In the midst of our circumstances

I have had a crappy few weeks and I have been relying on the Lord for His strength to get me through each day. I have been listening to Darlene Zschech and Hillsong Music every day now for the past few weeks. In the car, at home when it's me and Haven before Micah gets home, at work. Anyway, I have been wanting the new one for a while now, and didn't get it for Christmas, so went ahead and bought it for myself. It's called God He Reigns. Every time I get a new one of these live worship albums, I say they are the best yet, and they truly are. Every one I get seems to minister to me right where I am at. I am learning more and more to worship IN and THROUGH my circumstances and not focus on the circumstance, but on the Lord. For whatever reason, He has chosen this and I am praying and getting in the Word, trying to see just how He wants to use me and glorify Himself through this process. Our third baby is with Him now, we found out this past Sunday and although, it hurts, I know that there is hope and I have the Lord, so that is everything that I need. He wants Himself glorified above all else, no matter what the desire of my heart is. Although I know He wants to give me those desires, but in His timing.
God has been so good to allow me to have my sweet Haven and I realize now just what a true miracle from Him she is. She prayed for me while I was waiting in the hospital Sunday for the lab results to tell me wether or not I was still pregnant.
When you lose something, you are always reminded of what you do have and how important that becomes and what a true miracle life is. We are still trying to process through and grieve, but each day is a new day and His mercies are new every morning. He gives us strength when we have none and it is made perfect in our weaknesses. We are going to be running some tests here in the next month to try and determine the reasoning behind having 3 miscarriages in a row, and I am just belieing that teh Lord will allow us to find something out. We aren't going to give up on having another baby--just need strength in the losses and that we would be able to see clearly how He wants to glorify Himself through Micah and I to bring others to Him.

We love you Lord. Thank you for all you have done in our lives and for all you are going to do. We believe that You are who You say You are. You are going to do what You say You are going to do. I am who You say I am. I can do all things through You. Your Word is alive and living in me.
We trust and believe that You work all things together for YOUR good. Thank you Jesus for Your hope in me.
'For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you Do not be afraid for I myself will help you your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.'
Isaiah 41:13-14
Believing You,
Kara

5 Comments:

Blogger Stephanie Laney said...

Kara, God is going to bless you greatly for you faith and your trust. I love you very much and i'm praying for you. please let me know if I can help you out, babysit haven or whatever you need. I love you

12:43 PM  
Blogger Kara said...

Thank you! I will. I know you are willing and that means so much! Sorry I wasn't much fun Wednesday at lunch. Although this is a process, I am so excited to see how God changes our family and makes us more like Him through this! I love you as well and am so thankful to have another sister. Thank you again for the coat! I am going to wear it on my date tomorrow night with Micah. I am also getting my hair done tomorrow....ready for a change and in light of everything, I want a fresh start if that makes any sense.
K

1:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just wanted you to know that I just said a prayer for you and Micah. I pray that he gives you peace in your heart and a hope that only He can give. I don't know your email, but would love to get it.
Peace,
Allison Nelson

9:13 PM  
Blogger Kara said...

Allison,
Thank you for the prayers! Our e-mail is laney2@pgtc.com. Thank you again for praying. It truly means a lot!
Kara

8:33 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kara, your writting just blesses me everytime I read it. I wish I could learn to stop, slow down, and think like you. Thank you for you. You are so amazing. I love you.

2:30 PM  

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